Your argument is invalid.
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I feel like I’ve been stuck in a weird place lately. I don’t know how to describe it. There are so many emotions I experience that words can’t precisely describe.
It’s as if a wave of angst just blew past me and I can’t shake the feeling of it. Like a cloud hovering around my head.
I need to remember that there are so many people I love/care about and the few individuals that cause me stress are of little significance to my life. There are too many happy moments waiting to be experienced for me to waste energy worrying about select acquaintances and their bitchy attitudes.
On another note, sometimes it’s weird being a gay boy at UGA campus when you don’t fit precisely in with the other queenie boys running around. I feel like lately I’ve been trying to imitate some qualities that aren’t exactly true to myself. I feel like I’ve been searching for fulfillment in the wrong places—by means of attracting attention rather than looking inward. It’s just an upsetting feeling. When you feel like you’re maybe one step closer to discovering who you are and suddenly realize you’ve taken a wrong turn. You’re then left with a sense of failure, teased with more questions than answers.
It’s clear to me at this time in my life I’ve got more to be happy about than not. Why am I still looking for some approval? Why do I constantly worry that I’m not bold enough to be noticed by people?
I’m sick of the awkward judgment I get here and there. I don’t understand how people can blatantly try to make me uncomfortable and then sleep well at night. It just creates sadness out of me. A sad, distraught Malcolm.
divuh
take that, geology exam
me being weird alone in my room
Yeah, I haven’t really been paying attention
in Art History. There’s really no use. I can get the same information he’s spouting from the book later and spend my time tumblring.
I woke up way too late this morning. I intended to get up, go to breakfast, and be ready to class all before 10:30. That did not happen. I ended up being woken up to my roommate’s alarm at 10:45 and had to roll out of bed and run to East campus.
Lately I’ve been really tempted to go on Teavana.com and order a shit ton of stuff I really don’t need. Hmmm….
Samurai Chai Mate Tea
A sip of this sweetly robust straight up Mate blend awakens the Samurai within. Inspired by the Way of the Warrior, this fresh green Mate is imbued with strong spices, invigorating herbs and revitalizing citrus. A wonderful cup of tea that will get you moving!
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Ahhhh
Such a great morning. I finally feel settled back into UGA after a long welcomed spring break. I’m in philosophy right now, listening to my bearded professor, Dr. Baird. Beard-Baird. Heh. He’s discussing arguments made through analogy and I pretty much don’t give a shit. I did this stuff when I was a junior in AP Language. That’s a class I definitely miss. That and AP Lit., Brit. Lit. Honors, and American Lit. were my favorite classes during high school. Casey, Simonovich, and White. All wonderful literary ladies.
It’s my boyfriend’s birthday today. My baby is twenty-three years old. :) I don’t even really call him my “boyfriend” very often. We’ve been together for over two years and it feels like we’re more of “companions” now. He’s my best friend, my soulmate, my love. I consider myself lucky to have found happiness and kept it for so long. The greatest thing is that I have upmost faith that it’ll continue, morph, and bloom for much time to come.
In addition to it being Paul’s special day, it’s also my bffl Becca’s! So much happiness compacted into a short twenty-four hours. This time of the year is just so unbelievably beautiful. I love watching spring turn into summer. Everything’s greener and brighter. The colors penetrate my soul and my sense of contentment ceases to appear in ephemeral flashes—but rather it is ubiquitous, transferred from person to person through the warm, tingly breeze.
